Sunday, May 5, 2013

Trust in God.

Music has a lot of meaning to me. I feel like I learn so much from music. Music is the key to my heart that unlocks it and allows the spirit to soften and enter in. The song "Better Than I" has always had a special place in my heart. It reminds me that I know nothing, and that God truly does know better than I do. He knows what is best. I need to remember this in my everyday life, especially the hard days. 

"I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answer
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
And just when I had given up
The truth is coming clear, for...
You know...Better Than I
You know...the way
I've let go...the need to know why
'Cause You know Better Than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing, I don't know
Is part of getting thru
I try to do what's best
Find faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my faith in You, for...
You know... Better Than I
You know... the way
I've let go...the need to know why
'Cause You know Better Than I

I saw one cloud, and thought it was the sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught them how to fly
If I let You reach me...
Will You teach me? For...
You know...Better Than I
You know...the way
I've let go...the need to know why
I'll take what answers You supply
'Cause You know Better Than I"

I sometimes tell God what is I THINK is best for me and question his ability to help me through what he KNOWS is best for me. I often feel when life isn't all peachy, that God has forgotten me, when in all reality, He is just refining me and allowing growth to occur and strength to be manifest through the refining process. As I look back on past trials, I can see growth and triumph occur as I struggle through my trials. I also see the hand of my Savior in my life. The Savior truly is there for us not just in good times, but in the hardest times as well. I have recently realized that the Savior is not going to force his love upon us. We need to allow his love into our lives. As I think about the Atonement and the love of the Savior, I generally picture me begging the Savior for his mercy, grace, and love and see him granting it to me once I ask and make the effort to receive it. But recently I have had a different picture because of a bit of rebellion I have experienced. I had become bitter and didn't want anything to do with the gospel. Because of my internal rebellion I have seen the Savior begging me to come unto Him so He can give me His mercy, grace, and love. I recognize His love for me and for everyone more in my life. He loves us so much, He would do anything to help us come unto Him. He wants us to experience the INFINITE LOVE He has for us. I have felt the Savior calling me back to his flock as I have strayed spiritually and become bitter. Small experiences I have had have slowly brought me back to wanting the Savior a part of my life, trusting in Him, and letting Him lead me wherever I need to go. Allowing his mercy, grace, and love into my life. I know that my experiences, both painful and triumphant, are all for eternal purposes. I may not know the answer now, but I do know that God knows. If I put my trust in Him, and rely on His plan for me, I have nothing to despair or be afraid of. He will direct me and lead me to better places than I could ever get to on my own.